So my girlfriend of 2 years broke up with me. Not too well, either. She immediately entered a serious relationship with someone else.
Oh well. It just makes it easy to get over, 'cause it's rude, and it's a definite guarantee that she wasn't as into me as I thought. It was also a bit betraying. So we had no future. She's a bitch. Well, that's just my anger speaking. I know when I'm less pissed I'll forgive her in my heart. Everyone is flawed, and I'm not one to hold high standards considering I myself have many flaws.
On a lighter note, just like how nature comes back full-force every spring, I have feelings for someone new..
But it's the immature, stupid sort of feelings. Falling in love at first sight, so to speak. Guys really do fall to the siren call of a woman's physical beauty. There's two types of beauty: sexy, and beautiful. The beauty of this woman who I'm getting the opportunity to befriend is overpowering. I can barely talk to her, and I'm sure she has no interest in me because I just come across as some boring guy who doesn't speak much. I HAVE to try to to change this.
I did the typical 2000's sort of thing and lurked her facebook. She's actually intelligent, and she's not just into math, but also into art! So balanced. And one of the few bands she likes is a band that I like and like only TWO of my friends like. Really no one likes them. I'm gonna try to play this card.
I really hope we can come to some sort of chemistry.
Another problem is the gentleman in me: I think my housemate is down with her. And he's never had a girlfriend. Something moralistic in me makes me feel I should step aside, but I don't know. I don't know.
Love is selfish.
I also need to tread carefully. This just might be my conscious being lonely since I just came out of a 2 year relationship. Would it be rebounding, if consciously I am over my ex, but my body is still desiring something to fill that lonely hole?
Maybe I should just throw rationality and morals out the window.
Love is selfish.
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