...I'm just passing through, cataloging another chapter of my life...
Some stuff has happened since my last entry. It turns out that the girl I fell for hard, I fell for EXTREMELY hard. Genuine feelings, I'm led to believe, as I've never felt this strongly about anyone else (even my 2 year relation). To make matters worse, she told me she "didn't want to be in a relationship", (which could mean a multitude of things but that's not worth writing about) and so it was a "breakup" of sorts. I was tossed out of the void of relationship-to-be-but-pretty-much-a-relationship-but-not.
Anyhow, I don't want to talk about every little detail of what's happened here, as cataloging it will probably just make me mopy.
I've ranted time and time again about these details, and my getting over of "Gem", to my really amazing friend. I got to know her very well actually because of this ending with "Gem". She's actually a really awesome, unique, cool, helpful, kind, and inspiring individual and I'm glad to know her, and I'm so thankful for all the help she's given me in getting over Gem. I've told her time and again how much I owe her, but I don't think I can ever thank her enough. I'll just try my best to be a super good friend (which is an enjoyable thing in and of itself!).
Hmm, other random things in my life.
I'm paranoid of deodorant, yet I continue to use it. Recently, I've started taking multivitamins, and it has made me realize that, despite my super-uber-extraordinary-logic-based life, I'm a very irrational, superstitious, human person.
I got glasses! Seriously, it's ridiculous that I've been driving without them. I never realized how much I was endangering my friends!
I was about to list a bunch of other stuff, but just realized it's probably only interesting to me, and isn't really worthy of a chapter of my life section.
This is probably the crappiest blog entry on here, yet, but I feel I needed to update the current state of emotional affairs (depressed due to the loss of a particularly beautiful gem, but slowly working my way out of it), and where I'm at in life, so that if I look back on this, I'll realize how much happier (hopefully) I am at this time.
The statement in the previous bracket actually merits a bit of a discussion (perhaps I shouldn't have bracketed it, as it's not really that "unimportant"). I've never ever in my life, met a girl as impressive and perfect as the one I just met (Gem). How do I approach the future? Should I only go after those who I fall for as hard, if not harder? Or should I also remain open to those who I don't fall for as hard, but still develop some sort of crush on?
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